Over the last few weeks, I have found myself searching down a new path. I haven’t been on this path in a very long time, but I’m very excited about it. If you haven’t read the tweets, I have decided to go back to school.
Over the last 6 or so years, I feel like I’ve been walking through a jungle in a way. I’ve been cutting my path through things unknown and without a destination. During this time I have found various treasures, things I’d hope would grow but didn’t, and ultimately I have found where I want to be. For the longest time I thought I’d stay in the jungle.
I started out those many years ago as I am now, a grant writer. I had left my job in retail management when my son was born. Also born was my new knowledge of the non profit world. I found myself immersed in it as I learned the ropes of grant writing and found a way to stay at home to raise my kids while staying gainfully employed. Never before have I had such a rewarding job. I am so proud of the work I am able to do.
I also started reaching out to my community for ways to connect, as staying at home, working, taking care of kids didn’t really lend to a hopping social life or means to make new friends. What happened after that was truly incredible. Oh, Twitter. I’ve met tons of new people, been involved in the community in ways I never thought possible, I have watched people change jobs, move, their growing children or their new outfits, hardships, triumphs and more. I’ve observed the politics, the things that infuriate me, and the things that make me soar.
I have spent countless hours trying to support locals and business, events and other related things. I have tried to be a bridge. I have tried to be neutral. I have followed every Colorado Springs community member regardless of their political or religious beliefs, embracing the differences and glad to have found such a diverse people ebbing and flowing on my timeline.
I have tried and failed. I have tried and succeeded. I have tried.
It is time to move on.
First, you guys have found each other. Locally, Twitter is no longer disjointed. We have found each other. In a contest, I bet we’d win best Twitter Town. Well, you just won an award from me, anyway. The more time that goes on the more I realize that what I do isn’t as necessary or helpful as in the past. You’re finding the same resources I am, connecting, and becoming friends.
Second, I am now personally driven in another direction. I thought for some time that I could stay within the confines of the non profit world and just forever be happy. After all, the work I do helps hundreds of people, gives to those that have less, builds what could not be built. I won’t give up on this at this time. I just want to continue to move forward. I am pursuing what I really love. It will take some time, but I’m moving in a direction that I think will inspire and satisfy me. I’m so looking forward to it.
Third, I want to be ME. I have always paid close attention to how and what I share on Twitter. I have protected my voice and tried to make @SpringsAlliance palatable to the entire community. All for a purpose. I wanted to share everything. By quieting my personal voice, I hoped that others would show through.
It isn’t as though I’ve been silent! I have had many personal conversations with many of you on Twitter. I have truly enjoyed them and will continue to do so. I am, however, done being quieter, censoring, walking on eggshells or whatever. I’m not about to Andrew Dice Clay you on the Twitter, I promise, I just want to be free of the responsibility I’ve put on myself of doing so. I am not a corporation. I answer to no one but myself. I am not affiliated with anyone. I want to interact evenly now.
I don’t know how things will change, and I’ll still be around to be helpful. But I just wanted to tell you that moving forward, I’m going to be more… me.
I want to be unafraid to say what’s on my mind and support things that are meaningful to me. Some may not like it. But that’s me, just Wendy.
I’d like to thank you for making me a part of the community and embracing what I’ve tried to do. I have enjoyed the ride and hope that it continues, just in new and different ways. I have discovered a population of incredible people that I’m proud to call my friends and neighbors.
See you on Twitter.